I’m financially fucked right now

I sincerely don’t know how I’m going to pay my bills.

Every single week daycare costs me $200, it automatically gets pull from my check every Monday. I also pull $300 a week for 3 weeks out of my check for rent. That’s $500 gone the second I get paid every single week.

Last week I worked all of 19.75 hours and I have rent to pull, daycare to pull, a past due Internet bill that’s $60 and a past due electric bill that’s $210. They all need to get taken care of this week and I only worked 19.75 hours. I wouldn’t even be able to do that if I worked my normal 54.50 hours in a week.

I honestly don’t know what the fuck I’m going to do. Let’s just not even get into the fact that my car payment was due on the 15th and I still haven’t paid it.

This surgery completely fucked everything for me financially. I don’t know how I’m going to live the next few months. None of this is even including the credit card payments I’m supposed to be making, but won’t. At this point my credit has been fucked and I’m just going to fuck it even more by not making those payments.

Also, ACL is next month and I still haven’t paid Linda for my ticket and I haven’t set any money aside to spend miscellaneously. I also haven’t put any money aside for my cruise that’s happening in November.

Jesus lord I need to win the lottery or just become friends with some really rich person that wants to donate money to my sadly pitiful life.