Taking B to the doctor at 11:45
That gives me three hours to chill with him on the couch since I’ve already gotten everything done.
By 7:15 this morning I had made blueberry muffins from scratch, taken out the trash, stripped and washed Brockton’s sheets, washed the dishes and put away laundry.
Now we are gonna watch cartoons on PBS and get some snuggles.
And he has a 101.9 fever
Looks like we will be home all day and trying to get in to see the doctor this afternoon.
Wide awake at 2am
I got up to check Brockton’s temperature and now I can’t fall back asleep.
This is basically what happened last night. I’d wake up every 3 hours to check on him and then it’d take me about 2 hours to fall back asleep.
I’m going to end up being totally exhausted in a few hours when he wakes up for the day. Hopefully he’ll be content with laying on the couch all day napping on and off while watching movies.
I’m about 97.85% sure that Brockton has the flu. I’m currently waiting in line at the pharmacy for some medicine for him.
He is going to the doctor first thing tomorrow morning, but our doc is cool enough to call in meds for us ahead of time, especially since I think it’s the flu.
It’s gonna be a long night tonight. I’m such a worry wart when it comes to this kid. Hopefully he will get past this quickly. And hopefully this 101.6 fever breaks and goes away for good.
There’s a lot of things I want to say so I’m putting them here
I’m not exactly sure where this is going, but I have things I want to get off my chest and the only real way for me to do that is to write about them.
This will probably go from me talking about life to Mc to family to money to only god knows what. So, click through if you want, don’t if you don’t. This is really just for my own sanity anyway.
MY FOUR YEAR OLD IS SINGING DARK FANTASY BY KANYE WEST
MY CHILD IS COOLER THAN ALL THE CHILDREN!
I just sat for over an hour wondering what “normal” people my age do
Like what the hell would I be doing right now if I didn’t have a kid? I make damn good money for someone my age, but it’s not good money for someone with a kid.
I don’t get what people my age do with their time and money. I tried to think of the things that I’d be doing if Brockton wasn’t around and I couldn’t come up with it.
So even though I’m still sad and depressed about Mc and I breaking up I’m really happy that my life is the life I have. I literally cannot imagine my life being any different than it is right now.
I’m starting 2013 off grateful for what I have instead of being bothered by the things I don’t. When I really think about it I have so much more than lots of other people and I wouldn’t trade what I have for anything else in this world.
Twentytwelve
A list of the things that happened this year
- Rang in 2012 kissing Mc
- Cancer tests
- Tumor removals
- Best Valentine’s Day a girl could ask for
- Brockton turned 4
- Ovary removal
- Best birthday in 25 years
- Hysterectomy
- ACL with Mc, which is where we met 3 years before
- Disney cruise
- Perfect Thanksgiving with Mc and his family
- Breakup
- Christmas with my wonderful family
